2 Cor 5:7 For we walk by faith, not by sight. NKJV
Romans 8:15 For ye received not the spirit of bondage again unto fear; but ye received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. ASV
One of the most difficult aspects of being a Christian with OCD, panic disorder, chronic anxiety or depression is knowing full well that this is not what God wants for you, but not knowing how to overcome it either. The longer you wrestle with this question, the bigger your doubts grow—“Why won’t God help me? Is God mad at me? Did I do something wrong that I have not confessed? Am I really saved? Does He even exist?”. It is natural to be frightened and feel very alone, even angry. But remember, we are not to live in the natural, but in the spiritual. The enemy uses our natural fleshly selves to keep us in bondage.
The first thing we need to do to begin healing is to work on our spiritual recuperation. Trying to heal mentally and physically without healing first spiritually will be an exercise in futility—like trying to find a shoe when you are gasping for air. If we are sound spiritually, then it will be much easier to become sound mentally, physically, and emotionally—in fact you might find that healing becomes amazingly easy once your spiritual self is healed.
However, I have found that if I am unsound spiritually, nothing else seems to “matter”. I spend days wrestling with my spirit and that robs me of joy and healing.
How is it that some people can overcome the most serious or tragic adversity in a bright mist of joy while others have a dark cloud over them even if everything in their lives is fine? It depends on their relationship with God. When you are right with God then everything else is small and transient. But when you are not right with God, when your spirit is crying out in longing for Jesus, then even the smallest obstacles are overwhelming—germs are everywhere, social situations are like walking into a lion’s den, you don’t even have enough faith to do every day tasks like choose a water glass to drink out of. When your spirit has tasted the Living Water, then that is the only thing that will make it whole and well.
Go through these spiritual recuperation chapters carefully, do not skip it in hopes of an “instant” fix. Yes, there are helpful tips in the chapters later, but they are merely tools. This chapter is what will lead you back to true peace and joy. It will lead you to the promises of God, promises He has for you for your healing and wellness and fullness of spirit. It is the rock, the foundation upon which the rest of the book is built. Read carefully, pour over the Bible, spend time in patient prayer. Not the frantic “But God! Aren’t You listening???” type of prayer, but rather in the prayer of a person who can hear their train of healing rumbling toward the station and is waiting patiently, ticket in hand, to board it.